It was the late 1970’s and I was on vacation with my parents on the Hawaiian Island of Kauai. It was a beautiful trip, full of great memories and one decision that affected the next 40 plus years of my life. There we were, golfing in beautiful Kauai and all I can do is be frustrated and irritated with my putting, yes, I was a teenager.
I must be honest; the details are foggy at best, and I can’t even say that what I remember is what happened, but regardless, I remember having a horrible time putting and hearing my father say, “you haven’t practiced enough”. What my heart heard: you are no good at golf and you should just stop trying. you are no good. Amid the shame I was feeling, I made the declaration that I will never golf again.
Now you might be thinking yeah so what’s the big deal? The big deal is this, in what seems to be a bad day of golf and an attitude from a stubborn teenager, what I heard and felt was very wounding for me and resulted in leaving a piece of my soul in that low vibration of frustration and shame on an island in the Pacific. The wounding that I held onto from that day was not really about golf; it was around practicing and my self-worth. This story isn’t very captivating I know and that’s exactly why I’ve written about it. Losing a soul piece can happen at any time and anywhere, there is no exact recipe for it. For me, this episode, as insignificant as it seems, triggered enough shame and lack of self-worth in me for the loss to happen.
The soul is the epitome of duality. It is capable of withstanding anything and everything, and yet it is fragile enough to leave parts of itself behind at a time of upset, trauma, or drama, causing that piece of the soul to stay in the energy of the event with a wound left in its place. We each have our own contracts to fulfill and lessons to learn, even to master, so there is no way of knowing what events cause only wounding or wounding with the loss of a soul piece. Most people don’t realize they’ve lost a soul piece until they reach a point in life where their focus turns inward to healing and spiritual growth; when they’re reading for healing, that’s when soul retrieval can begin. Retrieval is a crucial part of healing, and it can be the first or the final step. (More duality?) What’s important to know is that losing and retrieving soul pieces are part of the spiritual journey and we all experience it, well at least we all experience the losing part, many miss out on the retrieval part. The experience is an indicator of not only the lessons that are being learned and mastered, but it’s also an indicator of the evolution of the person and their soul.
I have recently healed the wounding and retrieved the piece of my soul that I left on Kauai. I learned many lessons throughout my life because of that incident. What's coming in from "Cowboy": we are meant to fail, hurt, be wounded, and yes even lose soul pieces. We are also meant to learn, grow, evolve and heal. When the healing begins, clarity happens and all of our pieces and parts can come together in our heart space to experience joy.